I laughed out loud at a recent quip by her "You know, I have been in love only one and a half time". "How can someone be in love one and half time?" "Easy! One where you truly loved someone and he loved you back or at-least pretended to.The other time when your former love interest ditches you and after lot of contemplation and deliberation you like someone again only not to be reciprocated back because he has no idea about how you feel. Yep the latter one would be considered as the half.
With a smile on my face I tell her."Go on, you are interesting!"
" Would you write about it?"
" I will try!"
"Okay."
I was desperately seeking for a love that would take me to the moon, or more realistically speaking walk me down the aisle. Frankly, I made way too many mistakes but now when I look back I find it kinda funny. There was one time I spent an hour crafting the best SMS for him, a heartfelt text without being overbearing, sweet but without giving the recipient a toothache, so exquisite that one would almost cry. I sent that text and gave out a huge sigh of relief. Felt like a teenage girl running along a beach.Fantasizing about our future and thinking to myself "This is it. This text message will turn him into a person I want him to be.This text will make him realize that no one can love him as much as I do."
"Did that happen?"
The phone vibrates, I take deep breathes. Read it... and damn! Hopelessness sets in. My smile fades,bubbles floating in my head burst.Future looks bleak and I hated everyone.
What I had written was something like this..
You are the most beautiful thing which has happened to me. I just can't imagine my life without you and this feeling which I can't express didn't know it existed until you came into my life. I am so lucky to have you! Thank you for being there for me.
And the reply I got..
Cool!
I understand men are born sans the portion of the brain which sends awareness signals that should tell them "Dude at least reply with a sentence of 5-6 words when it comes to courting women you would eventually date." I want to hear from the boys who receive such beautiful texts and manage to screw it up completely with their one word responses. DO THEY KNOW THEY ARE DESTROYING LIVES? I want to know what their thought processes are and how it feels to sail through life and the romantic endeavors without breaking a sweat.Basically I would want to know how it feels like someone who cares less.
With my grin intact I ask her,"This was the whole number you were talking about. What about the fraction?"
Aah! That. Well,for the record it is still in the virtual phase. "Didn't get you?" What I mean is I like him (read love him) as an idea,you know in bits and pieces. Given some of his qualities he would make a perfect partner for me. "Like what?" Can't really explain but a certain 'effortlessness' in his personality that I love.I would simply adore a person with whom I can talk at lengths. He accepts that he hasn't figured out the world yet unlike everyone and is comfortable in his own skin.
"I sense a bit of apprehension in you."
"There are some. He knows nothing about how I feel."
"Do you plan to tell him?"
"No,never!"
"But what would happen if I write about it?"
"He wouldn't read."
"Are you sure?"
"I'd be lying if I answer that in positive, I would want him to read. Hell yeah!!"
Not always that I meet such interesting people over coffee but when I do I make it a point that I remember the minute details they shared with me. There are so many takeaway points from the conversation I had with this beautiful girl, many I can't express in words.
Choose love when they say your least favorite word.Choose to love them when they need you more than usual.Accept the flaws and ugliness that comes along with something beautiful. When you fall in love with someone, be prepared for the possibility that you might hate them one day.Love is the reason why they made most of their mistakes. Love at its best can give you a drug like feeling and at its worst like a withdrawal symptom( in her words). Choose which side you'd rather be.
If you think this made an interesting read come share your story with me over a cup of coffee.
With a smile on my face I tell her."Go on, you are interesting!"
" Would you write about it?"
" I will try!"
"Okay."
I was desperately seeking for a love that would take me to the moon, or more realistically speaking walk me down the aisle. Frankly, I made way too many mistakes but now when I look back I find it kinda funny. There was one time I spent an hour crafting the best SMS for him, a heartfelt text without being overbearing, sweet but without giving the recipient a toothache, so exquisite that one would almost cry. I sent that text and gave out a huge sigh of relief. Felt like a teenage girl running along a beach.Fantasizing about our future and thinking to myself "This is it. This text message will turn him into a person I want him to be.This text will make him realize that no one can love him as much as I do."
"Did that happen?"
The phone vibrates, I take deep breathes. Read it... and damn! Hopelessness sets in. My smile fades,bubbles floating in my head burst.Future looks bleak and I hated everyone.
What I had written was something like this..
You are the most beautiful thing which has happened to me. I just can't imagine my life without you and this feeling which I can't express didn't know it existed until you came into my life. I am so lucky to have you! Thank you for being there for me.
And the reply I got..
Cool!
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I understand men are born sans the portion of the brain which sends awareness signals that should tell them "Dude at least reply with a sentence of 5-6 words when it comes to courting women you would eventually date." I want to hear from the boys who receive such beautiful texts and manage to screw it up completely with their one word responses. DO THEY KNOW THEY ARE DESTROYING LIVES? I want to know what their thought processes are and how it feels to sail through life and the romantic endeavors without breaking a sweat.Basically I would want to know how it feels like someone who cares less.
Aah! That. Well,for the record it is still in the virtual phase. "Didn't get you?" What I mean is I like him (read love him) as an idea,you know in bits and pieces. Given some of his qualities he would make a perfect partner for me. "Like what?" Can't really explain but a certain 'effortlessness' in his personality that I love.I would simply adore a person with whom I can talk at lengths. He accepts that he hasn't figured out the world yet unlike everyone and is comfortable in his own skin.
"I sense a bit of apprehension in you."
"There are some. He knows nothing about how I feel."
"Do you plan to tell him?"
"No,never!"
"But what would happen if I write about it?"
"He wouldn't read."
"Are you sure?"
"I'd be lying if I answer that in positive, I would want him to read. Hell yeah!!"
Not always that I meet such interesting people over coffee but when I do I make it a point that I remember the minute details they shared with me. There are so many takeaway points from the conversation I had with this beautiful girl, many I can't express in words.
Choose love when they say your least favorite word.Choose to love them when they need you more than usual.Accept the flaws and ugliness that comes along with something beautiful. When you fall in love with someone, be prepared for the possibility that you might hate them one day.Love is the reason why they made most of their mistakes. Love at its best can give you a drug like feeling and at its worst like a withdrawal symptom( in her words). Choose which side you'd rather be.
